Fake.....

It's early....Or late...Depending on how you look at it.

Do you ever feel like we are living behind masks? Like that we pretend things are all fine and normal, when inside bits and pieces are breaking away? Like, you pass someone and ask the simple question, How's it going? The normal response is simply, "good". No one usually launches into their life story about how so and so broke up with them or they are already behind on their school work or they don't feel well and so on. No one usually does that and if for some reason they do, they are considered weird or giving too much information, or heaven forbid, a drama queen/king. Why is this the way it is? Why do we feel the need to hide and disclose our true feelings from the world around us? Why are we afraid of the truth, whether it is good or bad? Why can't we just say what we need to say and get on with it? Life would be so much easier...It might be harder and yeah, the truth hurts...But we can get past it. I just hate the feeling of having to hide so much....I hate not being able to cry. There are times when all I want to do is just break down, but I can't...Sarah says that on my wedding day, the years of emotional buildup are going to come crashing out in the ceremony...Haha. Good luck! But I hate wanting to just let it all out and not being able to. ...I wish people could just get rid of the masks they are hiding behind and live their normal lives...Who cares what people think? We all have struggles and problems...We're human!! We all have issues to deal with! That's normal! That's the way God created us! We are supposed to have a vulnerable side and what is wrong with letting stuff out now and then? I am just as guilty as ever.

So here..This is me letting out a piece of me that normally might not be seen. Eyes into my soul and heart....Here I am, letting you see something that I never let out....My vulnerable side.


"Mystery"- 2006/07

Pain in past
Future revealed
New Beginnings

Sunny Days
Hazy maze
Part of the mystery

Hopeful times
Made-up minds
What's the bigger picture?

Is there a story to tell?

The mask
White and Faceless
Covers her aching soul

Her bloodshot eyes
Her broken smile
Her hurts so deep below

His pain goes deep
So no one sees
What's deep inside

Hide deep within
Let no one in
Get far away

Back off
Too close
Too fast, too soon

Run fast
Hide all
Too intimate

Can't bear
The thought
They could find out

No where to run
No where to hide
He sees each thing inside

Melt away
The fears of past
The tears and pain

Melt away
The heartache gone
The time has come

Mysteries no longer
Truth comes out
Truth will win again.